As most of you know I had my first day at work yesterday, it was very strange having a bit of a routine again and I was nervous but was made to feel at ease by everyone I did meet albeit it’s not many as a lot are on leave at the moment due to summer holidays starting. I have kind of learnt what I will be doing but I haven’t got my desktop magnifier yet so it is a bit difficult to read the paperwork but the computer is sorted, I have a log in and my ID card is being done tomorrow so then I won’t any longer be a visitor but a fully fledged member of staff, yay!
This afternoon I met up with Julia from Milton Keynes, Helen and Geoff who live in Dorset and for the first time and definitely won’t be the last Maria & her husband Rob and the gorgeous dogs all who had a great time running along Jacobs Ladder beach and in the sea! After talking to Maria & Rob and how they didn’t realise I had Mild Cerebral Palsy, it made me realise how far I have actually come. I Was in a wheelchair 11-12 years ago, doesn’t time go fast! I slowly regained strength in the bad leg and then once I had come out of the wheelchair about a year later, it was crutches and physio you name it I had it all and of course in the end they put it down to my Cerebral Palsy. Then it was 10 years this March just gone that I was registered blind so with all that happened back then to how I am now that nobody can tell that I have disabilities, it makes me happy because they see me for being me. It wasn’t an easy ride and I wanted to give up many times but I was determined I wanted out of that wheelchair and I was determined I wasn’t going to let my registration of being blind get to me because there’s so much more to life.
My guide dogs have helped me in more ways than one, not just the guiding side but they have helped me build up my mobility and stamina and the strength in my arm muscles lol! And the confidence they have given me is amazing and to them I will be forever grateful. I have met wonderful people through these different challenges and now my friend is going through similar but the other way around, she sees me and my determination and that I got out of my wheelchair and she wants the same. It doesn’t always happen and it may not happen to her but she’s come a long way already in the time that she was in a wheelchair for a different reason to now not relying on it so much and also with her sight loss, just being able to help and be there for her giving her encouragement she needs I hope she will battle through this. It was extra hard leaving her behind knowing I am the only friend she used to see when I was in MK and now she doesn’t leave the house, makes me sad and I just hope she won’t go backwards now that I’m not there.
Yes our disabilities will never go away and sometimes mine are worse than other times, when you have more pain or at the end of the day I feel stiff and in pain and today more than normal with the things I did but I can’t let it stop me from enjoying life and I’m not going to let it stop me from doing things I want to do. Yes there are certain things I need help with and yes we have limitations but it’s also good to push the boundaries sometimes, yes you will probably pay for it but I believe it is all worth it, everyone knows their limitations whether it be being scared of heights or scared of water, whatever it may be everyone has their reasons but pushing the comfort zone sometimes is a good thing.
I did Snowdon nearly 2 years ago now and that was an absolute killer but I’m glad I did it when I did because I don’t know if I could do it now, seeing people who are doing it or going to do it makes me kind of think should I do it again but the pain I experienced days afterwards was honestly something I would rather not experience again even though saying that I went on a bike last year in Cornwall whilst on holiday and yes it was a bit of a disaster and after 21 miles the pain was probably worse than Snowdon and I couldn’t walk for days it was horrendous and it was the scariest thing I’ve ever done and why I did I do not know but that I am never doing again lol!
Looking back over all these things makes you realise the journey you’ve taken and how far you have come, the obstacles you’ve overcome and that’s good because we do forget as time whiles away and we think we are still in the same place we were 5 years ago but actually we are not. Even if I look back over the 3 months I have been here in Devon and over the last 6 months of this year, what I’ve done is something to look back on and be proud of but that’s something for another day.
Today brought back memories when talking to Maria and Rob and that was definitely a good thing! It was lovely seeing everyone and catching up with all that is happening all whilst the dogs had an awesome time playing on the beach 🙂 Bliss